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02 Jun

    Teach me, my God and King, In all things thee to see, And what I do in anything, To do it as for thee. — George Herbert

Some of us have gone through life unconsciously expecting others to bring us happiness, to make our dreams come true, and to make us feel good about ourselves. When nothing seems to be going well for us, we blame it on the lack of external support – we’re not in a serious relationship, we don’t like our job, we don’t have the money to venture into our own business.

When we change our perspective – when we know and trust that we are responsible for our happiness, our dreams, and our feelings – we become empowered. No longer is the burden on someone or something that is either unreliable or nonexistent. We’d been giving this power to others; now it’s time to take it back, to make and be responsible for our own choices, to value our opinions, and to respect our intellect.

    Today I will give myself credit for all I am capable of, financially and otherwise.

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I chose to publish this “privately.” It struck something that I’ve been thinking about this morning- namely Beth. I can’t really justify my anger towards her any more. I don’t want to be around her & haven’t been able to conjure a solid reason behind avoiding her. Also, I didn’t wake up in time to get to the Sangha this morning; two consecutive weeks I’ve missed now. Sent a text message to Hugh a few days back & haven’t heard from him.

In general, there’s a number of things I am feeling/thinking on that I feel uncomfortable about, and I feel like all of them somehow point toward me being weak and cowardly. I’m judging myself & these feel to me like a pattern.

I’m starting a temporary 3rd shift job Sunday night, which I’ve already been informed will last just a week or 2. I’m going to try to go back to sleep (a train going through somewhere nearby woke me – not my alarm) and going to see if something stirs later.

Posted with WordPress for BlackBerry.

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