When all is said and done, willingness is everything.
Most of us know very well that recovery doesn’t happen, nor is there any positive growth, unless we are first of all willing.
Sometimes we get confused over the difference between willing and wanting. We don’t have to want, let alone enjoy, doing what needs to be done. Not wanting to do something is altogether different from not being willing to do it. As one recovering woman said, “Everything I ever let go of had claw marks all over it.” The bottom line is that she did let go no matter how badly she wanted to hang on; she was willing.
Think of the people in the program we most admire, those whose progress seems so speedy compared to ours. They may very well not enjoy going out to meetings. They may find it uncomfortable to meet with their sponsors or to say kind words when they really want to complain. They may wish they didn’t have to make amends to certain people. But druthers aren’t the point. The point is that they are willing to do what it takes.
Today, I ask God to help me deepen my willingness to grow and to see the difference between what I want and what I will.